Her?

So I’ve discovered recently that I have SEVEN (count ‘em) SEVEN followers. and I only know three. SO; Hi there new people! -waves-

Tell me something about yourself?

I found this list on a website and found it pretty funny in my opinion. I do love the Breakfast club.

1. Nobody in detention looks like a young Molly Ringwald. Nobody.
2. Snappy one-liners don’t get batted around the room by bad boys with vulnerable hearts.
3. In fact, most of detention is spent in complete, insufferable silence.
4. Detention is closely monitored by angry teachers. Sometimes these are young teachers, who are annoyed because they got stuck with monitoring at-risk youth. Sometimes they’re old, and they actually enjoy doling out punishment. Either way, they stare at you the whole time, and it’s horrible.
5. The boyish jock will not deliver a heartfelt monologue about how much he regrets hazing a less popular student, and this confession will not lead him to tears and an epiphany about life.
6. The only character you might see is the Creepy Quiet Girl, who could not possibly be as cool as a teenaged Ally Sheedy.
7. Science Nerds don’t end up in detention. It’s a rule.
8. As far as we know, there is no wise old janitor named Carl.
9. Don’t expect people to bust into madcap dancing. If this happens, none of it will look choreographed. There will be no cool jump-cuts of students dancing on the hand rails. Alas.
10. Escaping from detention will not lead to a hilarious chase scene in the corridor. Your parents will probably just get a stern phone call.
11. Smoking cigarettes indoors will set off the fire-alarm. And lead to emphysema.
12. Simple Minds’ “Don’t You (Forget About Me)” doesn’t play as you leave school grounds, unless you play it on your iPod. Also, the freeze-frame effect only occurs in movies. Specifically, only in 80s movies.

Dear Ella; don’t tell me that I talk to david too much. Don’t tell me what to do. It’s cute, but now i’m just gonna end up talking to him even more now. Shame isn’t it? He’s a good friend and I can talk to my friends as much as I want. Girlfriend or not, you don’t control him and you don’t control me.

Dear Danny; you are adorable. Absolutely adorable. You have stooped so much lower than me. And I thought I was bitchy. You are now talking shit on me. It’s so cute. Especially after we agreed on staying out of each others lives. Talk all the shit you want on me. Because in the end, I’m not the one who is lonely, depressed and unwanted. I would say you can go fuck Lis, but the funny thing is that she doesn’t want you either.

Love.

Thank you inifinite wisdom I call Jones Soda. God I miss drinking this.

DEAR JOEY COMEAU: I LOVE YOU. YOUR BOOKS AND COMICS ARE WONDERFUL.

DEAR JEPH JACQUES: I dislike you at the moment. WHY WOULD LEAVE FOR THE WEEKEND WITH THE COMIC ENDING LIKE SO?! -cries-

DEAR VICTORIA’S SECRET: why am I subscribed to your emails still? I am poor and no matter how long I stare at the various items I want, I cannot afford you.

Goddamn, I’ve very scatterbrained tonight. This whole having a clean room thing is seriously fucking with me. Plus having my bed on a different wall makes me twitchy. I rewrote some of the horoscopes for today. Plus an advice column or two. Care to read? too bad, because i’m adding them:

• IF MARCH 26th IS YOUR BIRTHDAY: express your creativity. You are uncomfortable. Guard against weekends, plan.
• SCORPIO: Appearance helps get an older friend.
• CANCER: Spend a day out.
• CAPRICORN: Have a personal matter, take your time.
• (this is a “dear annie response”): People can feel your children. If you want…
• Sorry, but head with you canot compete with the excitement of the new one. Urge to cling to the change. Move on. It won’t be easy.
  
  My personal favorite is from my friend Audrey; SAGITTARIUS: the moment is not time.

So thats what we do when we spend countless hours at the waffle house drinking coffee. The rest of my exciting day consisted of “chatroulette” with Audrey and Jenn. We danced, we tried to making people dance with us. It was sad because they kept disconnecting. Tomorrow? CAGEBALL. fuck. yes.

I probably should be wearing pants right now. im too lazy to find a pair. meh.

Last night, I sat at my computer and read through about half of my 1085 tweets I have posted. I’ve realized, I remember very little of what I meant in half of the texts. I did however, find this photo:

I find him to be beyond adorable. If I didn’t have sucha bad headache and ADD right now, I’d be organizing shit. I’ve decided to take out my Darren Shan novels (I still love them however. DONT FORGET THAT.) and replace them with TV shows and video games. I’m fitting in with my generation, right? hah. I did find my FAVORITE necklace today. which made me SOO happy. I miss this baby so much.

FOUND A DECK OF CARDS. imma practice counting cards. I haven’t done that in a while. out peace.

(most boring post ever. MUST FIND QUOTES TO COMPENSATE.)

IN ADDITION TO THE ULTIMATE QUESTION: I was told to just go for it and tell him I like him. I’d feel like a fool to do so. He has no clue I have feelings for him and I’d prefer to keep it that way. I’m not losing him as a friend. Well, he might have an idea. I can be pretty obvious. But he’s never let on to knowing, so i’ll keep believing he has NO idea and that we can continue life as usual.

So; My grades for third Quarter:
I ended the quarter with 5 A’s, 2 B’s and one F, which I can raise once I actually take missing tests. So, I am pretty damn proud of myself.

And on another note; I started writing this short piece. it sounds dumb, but at the same time I wanna keep pushing myself to write it. Just to see how it turns out. I was inspired by an old friend Mark. He had written a story in the view of the piece of paper.

And on a negative note; I’ve realized a lot of my friends just aren’t talking to me anymore. and I don’t wanna bother with it anymore. If Joe does not want to talk to me as much anymore, it’s his loss. I’ve been talking more and more to David and Brett which I’m happy with. They are just as awesome.

AND TO ADD A PHOTO:

How I am going to dye my hair in the coming weeks. (perferably in the next week or so when I get my hair cut. just trimmed. It’s a compromise)

SO HERES THE ULTIMATE QUESTION: I like him, why? Because I can’t figure it out.

I’m going to be cutting my hair soon again. It’s going to be a lot like how I got it done before, but a tad different. It’s gonna probably be short but i’m going to try to keep most of my bangs. I hate my forehead, so I like to keep it hidden. xD Plus I’m going to be re-dying it an almost black color. I plan on doing it sometime in the next week or so. WELL IM EXCITED.

What do you think?

IF YOU ARE IN A RELATIONSHIP (friendship, couple, etc..): Communication works BOTH ways. Just because you do not talk to someone for a little bit, the other person is not at fault. You are to blame just as much as they are. Because guess what: You can send texts too. You can call too.

AND GUESS WHAT ELSE: No, you cannot say you miss hanging out with me when YOU blew off every plan I have made for EVERY past weekend for the past two months. and No, don’t even pretend you care. You don’t give a shit about how I’m doing. and No, Dont you dare ask me what’s wrong with Danny and I. Because you can get his damn one sided story. because I am done. oh wait, that’s right. YOU ALREADY HAVE. and you know, he can call me bitchy and so can you. but you know why he started to think I am? because YOU told me to stand up for myself when all it did was break us up and make me look like a neurotic bitch. SOO THANKKS.

IF YOU HAVE RECENTLY BEEN DUMPED AND IN HIGH SCHOOL: Well, guess what; it’s just high school. Grow up and get over it. yeah, I understand being upset. but NO ONE wants to hear about how you “don’t know what happened” because we all know what happened and none of us care. You weren’t gonna marry him.  You shouldn’t have tried anal.

                                      Thank you for your time.

Lemme rephrase something that i said in my earlier post:
 ”I always know how to fuck things up. I’m really good at that.” please note that this should be: “I might have fucked up what it was, but it was going to be the best decision I made. I needed this. I knew the outcome of this situation and I still did it. I still did it because a part of me knows I needed this to happen. I may regret it at some points, but it’s the best thing I could do. Because I don’t need what it took away anymore. Sometimes, I really don’t think I ever did.”

I finished all my Precalc homework as well; meaning all I need to do is take two precalc tests (one of which will be done on Tuesday.) another history test, and a morality test and i’m pretty much caught up. (well, minus quizzes.) I’m going to do this. I will, I will, I will.

Alas, on the note of my illness (It’s still a mystery!) the test results came back, and I am negative for any bugs in my tummy. SO, im heading in for an ultrasound on tuesday in the morning to see if there’s anything wrong and then an upper GI (no idea what that is. -nervous-) so we’re hoping it will all be figured out. I also spent enough money to cover my deductable for insurance, so I no longer have to pay for a thing when it comes to doctors! I can have intense brain surgery and I won’t pay a dime! -dances-

AND AS AN ADDED BONUS! UPDATED BOOK LIST:

Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
Band of Brothers - Stephen Ambrose
Alice’s adventures in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
                       Any other Suggestions?

I always know how to fuck things up. I’m really good at that.

On a brighter note; I was told by one of the judges from last year’s One Act play contests, that I was one of the best actors they had seen (I guess thats why I won an award. xD) and that they had come to see Beauty and the Beast specifically to see me. That’s So exciting! He does community theatre around the area, so I’m hoping I can find some of the plays he does and I get a chance to be in them. It would mean a lot. I’m just so glad someone thinks I’m amazing. I surround myself with too many negative nancys.

I’ve been turning in some missing work and my grades are as follow:

Morality : F
Anatomy: B
Psychology: A
American History : F
Precalc: F
Child Development: D
American Lit : C
Band : A

I’m getting there. and I’m glad. I only have three more weeks before the quarter ends (eep!)